The same happens with friendship... why if we let things go they finally dissappear? why do we even let things go? What was on my mind when I just lost interest, why didn't I think that I could lose it all? when did all our relationship started to sink?
I would like to say that it's not my fault, but it is. I was the one that wanted to run away from you because it hurted me so bad being by your side, and I didn't realize that what hurts more than being by your side is not being there. Being no one in your life? In a year I became the "only one" that listens to you, ans in less than that I became tha one asking, "how things going" with not a real interest in that.
I wish I could go backwards, but there's no way for that. But I want you to be again by my side. Having you as a friend is much more than so many things, and now that I'm stronger, and now that I know what I have to do, what I want to do!, now that I know myself better, now is when I want you back by my side, and I feel you might want it too, but we both don't know how to. How could we?
People show you things that you could do all on your own with no help at all, but no one tells you how to do the most difficult things. Maybe beeing sincere is the key, though it might be embarrassing, though it may hurt, I feel the only way is to tell you how I feel right now, and hope that you'll accept that kind of apologize, and we could ever be friends again somehow. I still don't see when I started to lose you, but I know that someday I realized that I was losing you, and I did not care at all, 'cause I though that way would be better. For you and for me. Why is it so easy to lie to ourselves? And why is it so difficult to get you back?
Sorry, I'll try, but that fact is that I feel you so far away from me right now... but still want you so close.
